I asked dad how he is able to stay so strong. I am trying to learn, for my betterment, how he is able to be so calm and patient in a situation that would likely crush most people. He said that he is approaching this time as a simple pause in his life. A time to consider, think and accept. A set of circumstances beyond his or any of our control, dictated by powers beyond our comprehension. A big hospital bed shaped pause button. I wish that we could just pause time altogether, the sunset said no.
It’s so hard to celebrate when someone so integral to life and hilarity is not present. It’s so hard to celebrate when all of our minds are collectively saturated with thoughts of him, and how he is doing and if he is ok and when he will be better and if… and what…. and what-if.
We don’t ponder on the what-if’s, instead we do what he loves best and celebrate life. So we all donned some of his ridiculously hideous brightly printed shirts, that he wears with religious commitment, and went out in the delicious sunshine salty ocean air and celebrated together.
Our hearts are on pause with him, but our lives and spirits are fuelling him to keep fighting so we can soon all wear ugly fabric together. Unite Hawaiian Prints, Unite!
Love this!!
Now that I am here and not there in Trini with you all, this blog is a life-saver. Draining as I know it isfor you to express these feelings on a regular basis, it gives me hope and the will to go on going on. Tracy, you’re a star. Love you and all my unique Trini family.
Awwww I love this post. So beautiful, and I love the ugly shirts that are just SO Jim
Loving you all and missing you! KEEP FIGHTING JIM!
Hey Tracy,
So great that you can keep this going for all to keep up with Jim’s progress.
Hey Jim,
“While there’s life. there’s hope.” May the Creator give you the strength to see this through, so you can fire off the cannon for 2014. A Happy and Blessed New Year to you and to all of your loving family.
John.
Lorna, see why a day cannot go by without me going onto the blog to see what Tracy has to share??? especially as I am unable to go and spend some time with them…Tracy you all are being given tremendous strength from above…what an amazing family…Jim’s love for life and determination will get him through…from my Mum’s experience it is a long road but day by day dear Lord we pray….